Highs and Lows

I know that living abroad is not without challenges. However, sometimes I feel like I can go from being extremely happy to extremely sad in an instant. I don’t know if I’m homesick, or sad about missing Thanksgiving, but today was just horrible.

First of all, I’ve been kind of sick for the past week. It didn’t help that when I was feeling particularly yucky last week, I wasn’t allowed to go home. To top it off, two days later I came in to find out that a Korean teacher was home sick and it was my responsibility to cover her classes in addition to mine. Like, what? Here comes the cynicism and feelings of exploitation…

Anyway, back to today.

I woke up in a bad mood. Steve and I went out for brunch. It was just so cold and windy, though, and I was not having it. I pretty much complained through the entire meal. Finish up, go home, whatever. I Skyped with my girlfriend Alysa which was really nice. Bitched some more.

I got to work and the office was freezing, windows open. Why? Whyyy? I had to keep my coat on! I also discovered that there was some kind of testing going on so I didn’t even have most of my classes. I tried to read some Huffington Post, but I was starting to feel stuffy and dizzy and terrible.

Naturally, I went to the bathroom to cry. What exactly was I even crying about? I don’t know, but it helps sometimes.

When I finally emerged, the head teacher came and asked if I was sick. I just told her yes (in the hopes of going home early) and we went to the hospital. What a mistake. Long story short, they gave me a shot in the butt and prescribed me a series of horse pills that I absolutely refuse to take because I have no idea what the fuck they are.

I had to pay for them, too.

I got to go home at 7, instead of 10. Which I felt was still ridiculous because we went to hospital at 4 and I had nothing to do for another three hours. So I sat at my desk, in my coat, and read about Thanksgiving leftover recipes online.

When I got home, I made myself a pot of macaroni and cheese and ate the whole damn thing, about which I certainly have no regrets.

I still feel like shit and I’m seriously fighting to urge to pack up everything I have here and get on the first flight out of this country.



5 thoughts on “Highs and Lows

  1. Susan Helfand says:

    Hi Tia,
    By the time you read this you will be having a much better day, I’m sure! Thanksgiving is over….everyone now moving on. Be glad you’re not here…its Black Friday and the traffic is impossible!
    Hope you’re feeling better…the most important thing.


  2. Tia that sounds dreadful, really. So sorry the lows seem so overwhelming. They would to me too. A good cry in the bathroom was a good idea. It must mean something because just this morning a friend was telling her dauther, who was having a rough time at work, that instead of lashing out at someone or throwing something she should just go to the bathroom and cry. I hope things will get better…and its true about the traffic, and the craziness of people fighting over parking spaces and black friday specials, and the thanksgiving hangovers and pounds gained. That doesn’t help I know, but do know we’re all rooting for you and hanging in there with you.


  3. aunt carol says:

    Just hang in there things will get better and you have such adventure think about that. I’m always here for you so e-mail me carolcmaietta@gmail if you want to talk or say write


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