30 Day Challenge: Day 8

Share Something You Struggle With

Something I struggle with is anxiety and it affects me on a regular basis. Over the years, I’ve held a number of different jobs and, while my tasks have changed, my response to stressful situations has not.

As a server, I can feel very overwhelmed. This happens when I either have a large party or many tables at once. If I feel rushed or if I’ve forgotten something or if things simply aren’t going smoothly, I can’t help but burst into tears. I have to completely remove myself from the situation and I end up in the back or locked in the bathroom.

At 25 years old, this is incredibly embarrassing. People will tell me to grow up or not to let it bother me. But it isn’t that simple. Rationally, I know it’s ridiculous to get upset over the fact that it took me two more minutes to bring a guest their Pepsi, but in that moment it feels like the end of the world to me.

My eyes fill with tears and it becomes physically difficult to breathe.

I wish I knew how to keep this from happening, but I don’t. I’ve tried yoga. I’ve tried breathing exercises and meditation. But nothing seems to work.

What’s something you struggle with? What’s your coping mechanism?

Also, if anyone would like to do this challenge with me, it can be found here.