Saturday Stream of Consciousness

It’s a rainy Saturday here in Ulsan, so I decided to spend some time at a cafe and do a little writing. The following is what I penned in my notebook:

It is grey and raining in this cafe where the tables look like Morocco: blue, patterned. I am drinking my iced latte, my favorite simple pleasure. And I want to cry like the rain. Croissants. Scones. Chitter chatter. I’m never alone, even though I feel like I am sometimes.

The barista is bringing out more pastries for display and the music isn’t my favorite,  but it’s pleasant. Cars are driving by on the tiny street and I see my apartment from my seat. Why do I love coffee so much? I used to hate it. This place is filled with bamboo and other big, leafy, green plants. The sign on the door says “coffee is always a good idea” and I agree. And I’m looking at the seafood restaurant across the street, but it’s probably too expensive. But the pictures of the lobster look so good.

The rain is rolling down the windows and drip dropping on the outdoor benches. I’m waiting for a package. I wonder when it will come. I wanted to go for a walk today, but the rain.

MUST. ESPRESSO. BLEND. CODE BLACK. That’s what it says on the card on the saucer that my coffee came on. And I think about how many cafes I’ve been to and how much coffee I’ve had with friends, boyfriends. I love it.

Dark chocolate. Cacao. Cashew nut. Mandarin. Good body. (The other side of the card.)

Balance. Am I balanced? The Lexapro makes me feel like I am. Until I feel overwhelmed. Anxiety. Boom. Fuck. I can’t breathe. I can’t make everyone happy, but I can make me happy. This coffee helps. I’m going to Taipei. That helps. Food and art. Food and art. Probably my most favorite things in the whole wide world. I’m going to eat xiao long bao and bubble tea and beef noodle soup and Taiwanese breakfast. Give me culture. Give me experience. I’m not going to just pay bills and die. I’m going to live. I’m going to do everything I want and more!

Colombia “Narino” Supreme. Guatemala “Fraijanes Palo Alto Azul.” Indonesia “Aceh Gayo.” (More from the card.)

I keep looking at it. I didn’t bring an umbrella. And I’m wearing sandals. I don’t really care. I think the rain’s getting heavier. 종가2길. My Korean should be better after all this time. But it’s not. Is not giving a fuck an art? If not, can it be? A family just walked in. The little boy is in awe over the pastries. Mom is wearing neon green and black striped socks. The boy’s wet shoes are squeaking across the floor. Dad looks tired. I look tired. It’s fine.

Origin. Origin. Origin. Origin.

The croissants are looking mighty good. The espresso machine is beautiful. MUST. Custom? Italian? I’ll have one someday.

Purple poncho. This guy is outside leaning on his motorbike, drenched. Driving away. I don’t miss driving. 가위 바위 보. Rock, paper, scissors. An older couple across the street is playing, smiling. They look happy. I like that. 

Pensive. I like that word. I like a lot of words. History. Defined.

Is this Oasis? Shazam. Yes, it is. “Married with Children.”

Eclectic. Marble. Wood. Brown. Black. Cream. The light is soft.

Do other people scream internally? Because I feel like I do that a lot. Sometimes I look at people and wonder how they’ve made it this far. And they do some stupid fucking shit which makes me open my big, fat Jersey mouth. Whatever. I didn’t used to do that. I think living here has made me more fearless. That sounds cliche. Wow. But seriously. I can’t stay quiet anymore. Is it growing up? I don’t know.

I love myself.

Matt and Tia – A New Blog for Foodies

Hi everyone! I know I’ve been terrible about keeping my blog up-to-date (again). But that’s only because I have a new project to tell you about!

If you like food – eating, cooking, looking at pictures that will make you hungry – please check it out the new blog my boyfriend Matt and I have been working very hard on: Matt and Tia. Matt is a professional chef and I just really like to eat.

We want to bring you reviews, videos, recipes, pictures, and just about anything else you can think of that has to do with food.

We have also set up several other social media pages and we would really appreciate it if you could follow them, as well:

Facebook

YouTube

Instagram

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Thanks so much and looking forward to seeing you all on our pages!

30 Day Yoga Challenge: Day 5

Today, I did the fifth day of the DO YOU YOGA 30 Day Challenge. It was called “Yoga for Spine Flexibility.” Like yesterday’s video, it was really good to improve posture and I enjoyed doing the poses. I’m actively focusing on bettering my posture when I’m sitting and standing.

After the video, I had some blueberry oatmeal for breakfast. I also did a load of laundry (which desperately needed to get done). Feeling extra motivated, I also decided to go to the gym and used the elliptical for about 25 minutes.

Now, I’m home and continuing my productivity. I got paid today, so I was able to make an extra payment on one of my student loans, pay my Kohl’s bill in full, and put some money into savings. Woohoo!

I also had some Greek yogurt and a cup of green tea following my workout.

Later, I’m going to run some errands with my mom since I’m off all day.

*Edit*

For lunch, my mom and I ended up going to Red Robin. I love it there because they have so many healthy options. I got a grilled chicken breast sandwich with red onions, avocado, bacon, and tomato (in a lettuce wrap – no bun) and got a side salad instead of fries. The worst part (calorie and fat-wise) was probably the blue cheese dressing on the salad. It was still really delicious, though.

30 Day Yoga Challenge: Day 4

Today, I did the fourth day of the DO YOU YOGA 30 Day Challenge. It was called “Yoga for Great Posture” and I really enjoyed it. I admit, my posture is not the best and my back hurts almost all the time (it has since high school). I feel a little better after this session and I think I will start doing these poses and stretches more often, since they seem to help.

Aside from that, I worked from 6 AM until 1 PM today. It was hard dragging myself out of bed so early (and in the cold) to go to work. For breakfast, I had some blueberry oatmeal and a tablespoon of peanut butter. For lunch, I had the peanut butter and jelly box at work (450 calories). We also sampled a new drink at work called the Cascara latte (it was very sweet and I didn’t like it) as well as these new sous-vide eggs (I didn’t like them either and thought they tasted like plastic).

For the rest of the day, I think I’m just going to relax because I don’t feel particularly well. A nap sounds good right about now.

30 Day Yoga Challenge: Day 3

Today, I did the third day of the DO YOU YOGA 30 Day Challenge. It was called “Self-Care Core” and focused on core strength. This was a little challenging for me since I essentially have zero core strength, but I got Matt to do the video with me and that made it more fun. He tried to get me to do some pushups (I literally can’t even do one) and we also did some sit-ups.

For breakfast, we had hot and sour soup with pulled pork that Matt made. It was delicious. Then, we went to Michaels together. I was looking for a piece of wood to make a craft for my best friend (I do pyrography sometimes), but they unfortunately didn’t have what I was looking for. Instead, I got a beautiful new set of colored pencils and a food-themed adult coloring book.

After that, Matt and I went to the mall to walk around a bit and check out some stores. We didn’t buy anything, but we checked out some cool sneakers and skateboards. Later, we went to Shop Rite to get some stuff for dinner. Matt bought a piece of salmon and a cucumber.

Back at his house, I colored while he made some really awesome sushi. After we ate, we watched Kung Fu Hustle which was probably the most visually appealing film I’ve seen in a very long time. It was great.

Now, I’m home and have to be at work at 6 AM tomorrow. Boo.

How was your day?

30 Day Yoga Challenge: Day 2

Today, I did the second day of the DO YOU YOGA 30 Day Challenge. It was called “Happy Hamstrings” and focused on (you guessed it) hamstring flexibility! This video was also about 12 minutes long. I really like the instructor so far; her name is Jessica Rose. It’s also been a really long time since I’ve actively stretched and I’m feeling very positive this morning.

I don’t have work until 2:30 this afternoon, so I think my mom and I might be going to get new cell phones. I’m really excited because mine keeps shutting down randomly and it’s really frustrating – especially when I need to set my alarm to get up early.

Anyway, here’s some food stuff. I’ll fill in the blanks as the day progresses.

Breakfast: strawberry smoothie with almond milk, small piece of Greek new year’s bread.

Lunch: Leftover chicken stir fry, one oatmeal cookie.

30 Day Yoga Challenge: Day 1

Today, I did the first day of the DO YOU YOGA 30 Day Challenge. It was called “Let’s Get Started” and focused on hip openers. The video was only 12 minutes long, but I completed it comfortably and I feel really good about it – especially since I spent 8.5 hours on my feet at work today!

I think I’m also going to use these yoga posts to chronicle my eating habits for the next 30 days as well. So, here’s what I ate today:

Breakfast: Tofu and veggie scramble made with one egg

Lunch: Zesty black bean and chicken salad (from Starbucks)

Snack: Leftover eggroll (no sauce)

Dinner: Chicken stir fry with white rice, Kevita mango/coconut probiotic drink

I also drank two venti iced green teas at work.

Who else is making an effort to be healthier in 2017? Feel free to share!